i am holding my hands out

from by ian craig



another mountain goats song. a tough one to talk about. this was the song that came after some dark shit happened and i was wondering why, if jesus were real, would he want to be so forgiving of a soul bound continuously to sin? the paradoxes of christianity are too much to parse.


our young hearts are already dead
ancient and decaying
we will not know what it is to lay down
without these young hearts

i'm scared of being swallowed by the ground
is it a lack of fear of celestial bodies
and undeniable shaking?

i'm holding my hands out
to a rebellious reflection
this is not me
my young heart has already died

i'm holding hands out
back to the scene of the crime
i will lay down with thieves
and be handcuffed by you
i will be dripping wet
try to hold me
make the shaking end

i'm holding my hands out
i am drawing them back in


from holding my hands out: (2008​-​2016), released July 20, 2016



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